The Questioning.

When you don’t receive any explanation of why you lost your baby, it’s near impossible not to think back throughout your pregnancy and question everything that you did.

Did I drink too much coffee?

Did I skip too many days of taking prenatal vitamins?

Were my showers too hot?

Did I sleep on my back too much?

Did I stand too close to someone smoking?

Was I using a cleaning product that was toxic?

Did I eat something that I shouldn’t have?

Should I have not gotten my hair dyed?

What about those glasses of wine I had before I even knew I was pregnant?

Did I lift something too heavy? Push myself too hard? Stress too much? Not rest enough?

The questioning and overanalyzing can drive you crazy when you don’t have all of the answers. You are told over and over that you did nothing wrong, but it’s hard to allow yourself to believe that when you don’t know what actually did go wrong. Hopefully one day there will be more research done in this area and we will get the answers that we so desperately need. Maybe one day we will have less women who need to question themselves because they will know exactly what happened, or maybe they won’t need to question what happened at all because we will be able to prevent something from happening in the first place.